Tuesday, September 30, 2003
Well wlel, today is a long day.Din tok to ya much today,so sorriE!but got XR to talk to ya right??hmm...Exams coming soon.haven really started studying.Die liaox
Still got so many more journals to write,just finished all the notes!!yipeeex....Anyway,i still wonder,do u still need moi to tok to ya??hmm....I wun think about other stuff 1st.Cause studies come 1sty.After end year= playtime......YippeE!lets hope its really playtime......Hmm...Oh welsh congrats on yr test.Hope u do well in tomolos physics test too!!!Hehex.....Good luck!!gotta start writing see yaLAter!!What is meant to be yours will be yours..Will you be mine again???hmm.....Hmm...DOn't have to answer.im just thinknig out loud...
penelope glittered! @ 9/30/2003 10:23:00 PM
Monday, September 29, 2003
Hellox..back to blogging again, anyway,got back 2 test marks
feel happy and veriveri veri sadx...happy is bcause i sCORED the HIGhesT in class for BioLogY TEST!!yippeex,,,,,got 23.5/30........Sad SAd thing is that i failed my english common comorehension test.Hmm.........Wasted my time on the "useless" questions...Haix.scored 23/50..........YIkeS!!!Hate my eNg MArkS@@........Cant let it affect moi ENglisH gradE!!FOund out that go NJC needa bout 11-15 pts??i think should be 11......Hmm.Wroking hArd towards the TargET.Or ShoulD i go POlY instead??hmmx.........Hows teest today?u sound PrettY conFIdenT!!HEHEx......Sianx......tomolo got cheena tesT!............hAIx.......NeedA StUdy Hard AgaIn!!Yippe yippee yea...LEarnt how 2 draw funvtion graphs laiox.and tomolo - mRs wong not cominG!!Last period= do revision papER!......HEHEX.....Long long day tomolo..See yA AROund!
penelope glittered! @ 9/29/2003 08:21:00 PM
Sunday, September 28, 2003
Hmm...Been thinking hard this few days.....frankly speaking d truth , iludaa never has been forgotten.....not even a bit....THe feeling is still strong,just like our school flame,burning BrighT....even though i know its kinda impossible cause he's wif another GreaT gaL.......Found out dat i dun haf confiding friends.......Hmm....PErhaps...that make me a more sad person.......hmm.Ever wondered why i keep a distance from u in school and at homE??as in less phone calls???(when we are together??)hmm.....theres a story behind all this ......Hmm,Stay HappY and fUnkY......HeHex....I can't believe that i din cry ever since we are not together........only Felt Sad Sad and SaD.Why???am i weirD??hmm........Many say im weird ......my tuition friends,and gang....my classmates!hahax......
Good Luck for geog test tomolo dear..!!
penelope glittered! @ 9/28/2003 08:25:00 PM
Hmm......spend the whole afternnoon outside at concourse shopping cente.....mum looking at fake trees to decor the house.Went around looking for other things.MAny pple at the shops there to get childrens day prezzies
now i know where they got all their pens and pencils from.ITs So CHeap!!!hmm.,Mi bought lotsa gift wrapper instead...hahax.Wonder why too!got aLot OF CardS bday cards,and friends card....Hmm.....Ate prwan mee for lunch and fish soup for dinner.Yum!!Still HungrY though................Hmm......Hows yr DAy?
penelope glittered! @ 9/28/2003 07:43:00 PM
Saturday, September 27, 2003
Wellwwell.......Hehe..Really got no more liaox.....and the rest is in my mouth..so u cant have the Pizza...SorriE!.....And the last piecE on d taBLe is Lynette's 1.Cannot take...Hm.......The joy and fun i have shared with them......cannot be compared to the fun joy laughter and tears compared to yrs........Hmm.Tell mi yr feelings kaE???
Hmm...I Dunno whehter my cheerfulness is acting or real happiness..........Hmm..i feel weird without someone by my side.......Hhehe!hows yr daY?
penelope glittered! @ 9/27/2003 12:36:00 PM
Friday, September 26, 2003
Oh Welsh! ITs friday aGain.1 week has passed.....Last week ,room compared to last week,was defintitely quieter......But when we started playin scrabble...we started making noises,in fact LAughter!!hehex....We were singing hokkien songs,chinese songs,english song.......Hmm.Everyone seem to be in the mood to sinG!!hahahax....WEnt to make bread pizzza with ms lau.....HEHEHE!!FRee Lunch.Din do much.helped to spread the ketchup on the bread and cleaning up!!hehe.........After that 3.30= rushed off for dental appointment........On the bus ,i was thikning.........dunknow what im thinknig bout too..........Hmm.......Weird isnt iT??Anyway,i rushed down to the clinic........After that rushed down to tuition ....So hungry that i went to BK and get some fries.......MRT was like SSOOOOOOOO crowded.Wonder whats wrong with the pple nowadays.Keep wanting to aqueeze into the train.......Squashed like sardines todayx.......HAix!!After that got eng tuition.Tcher himself late..Hmm shouldnt have rushed thenx..........ANyway, i ate so so somuch toDAY!!OH nO Im A PiG!!.........
hehehex......
penelope glittered! @ 9/26/2003 11:38:00 PM
Thursday, September 25, 2003
25. (from d email.....Love this PAaraz....)
The way their tears
make you want to
change the world
so that it
doesn't hurt her(him) anymore.....
Yet regardless
if you love them,
hate them,
wish they would die
or
know that you would die
without them ...
it matters not.
Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to
the depths of their souls
and
you say a million things
without trace of a sound,
you know that your own life
is inevitable consumed
within the rhythmic beatings
of her(his) very heart.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind
but of the heart.
A feeling.
Only felt.
Well..its so tough to tell ya my real feelings........Dont want to upset u and make u feel confused.and i do want u to do well in yr studies.......
Perhaps its time for mi to tell u d truth........but hopefully it wun make u cry again,kke?
Well,I felt a twinge of jealousy on tuesday,and the subsequent days.Dunno what has gotten over mil.Perhaps the fact that I still love u deeply i dunno..theres the jealousy feeling there......perhaps , now, not much jealousy as more time is taken to revise my work instead...No doubt I was sad.....As the wonderful and precious memories seem to be taken away from mi......the feeling that I loved....and everything......but im feeling better now.x.....so no worrY!.........But u never told me whats yr feeling after we are not together.....Hmm.......But Mux StudY hArd! Okie dokiE?I lost to tIme .....Didnt strike a bALanCE between work and aLL.....Regretted bout it since yesterday.....Bout time management thingy....hmm.What Dr Yap Said IS right....Striking a balance is Important....Hmm.So sORrie That I DiN Spend EnoUgh TimE With Ya over The days.....MAkiNg U feel UnLoved and Stuff......BuT u oso quite toot TOOt 1 lehx....u should haF told Me that U needed attention!!!Cause I din RealiSE this Problem wIth Me TIl Now.....AnyWay,ThankS for telling ME NOW~!
P.S Do tell me Ya feelings KAE???
penelope glittered! @ 9/25/2003 07:05:00 PM
Wellwell........Dexter asked me what happen between us too>........Well well...Jia Qi oso ask,Angela oso ask,Gang Oso ask.......Oh ya not forgetting cher and JS......Well...All my answers were d same.Moi mum found out....tata...... Hmm...Time seem to pass veri slowly nowadays.And tomolo Gootta go 4 dental Appointemnt.,,, hehe so fast liaox...1 month passed liaox......IT was just last month when we went tout to watch movie.......ANyway,after that will be going forenglish tuition= no engLish tuition on SUNdaY!!!hehehex........Im trying To be happi now..and im constantly making the effort to smilex... hahaxz....Jia qi dun beleive that we 2 actualyy are nto togetherx.She thought im joking.Hahhax........... Anywayx... Gonna concentrate on sTudies be4 thinking of ways to balance relartionsships and stuff...THx for MAking Me ReaLise That PoinT,,,,Seeya
penelope glittered! @ 9/25/2003 05:50:00 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
i learnt many stuff ........from the talk,ALl bout strikning a balance.......Hmm.realised that i did not hafe the balance thingy at all.Spend too much time with bks rather than him........Now ,it may be too late.But i learnt moi lesson.....HOpefully i wun make the same mistake.....PRomise to strike a balcance between family,workk,studies,friends and anyother else............YepX!1 lesson learnt..........thanks Drick
penelope glittered! @ 9/24/2003 09:20:00 PM
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
well well....mayb.........nothing lasts forever..hmm.......
This 3 months and 6 days have been a memories that are so dear to mi...Clear my records and forgot bout yA? Doubt i can do so........I tried.but i can't...Hmm.........SO dun Feel Bad okieZX? I haven told GAng Yet......will be teelling them soon........sorrie......no feel sad and bad k??told sonia.....so she know it liaox.........perhaps i will be sad for a few days...but not after my end year.NO one seems to know we talk less often.........hehhe..well well.Enjoy yrself when u r wif Xin ru k???I think u 2 have loits more to tok about than me...........Sorriex.....Don't ask mi why i said thatx.........Knew this dream is ending........but i din know it has ended........see yax..
penelope glittered! @ 9/23/2003 07:52:00 PM
Monday, September 22, 2003
my most memorable days when we are together:
1)Sec 2 Camp fire Nite,1st time HolD hanDS
2)!st Date with Dear.Tale of 2 Sisters,1st kIss
i will always remember d days.......
penelope glittered! @ 9/22/2003 09:18:00 PM
well, guess today is 1 of my sad day in life.....from 16 july til now,22 sep = a period of 3months and 6 days.......we are so called back to square 1........hmm
but this period of time do pass veri veri quickly, perhaps its because of him,,,,,thats why...Life filled with all my pleasant memories this period of time.thankx dear......
penelope glittered! @ 9/22/2003 08:39:00 PM
but im glad that i hada tried to make him happy.....guess my friday will be free again.......wanted to ask him out be4 mi go tuition at nite.......hmm....well try the mint ice cream at orchard someday kae??see ya in sch,,,,,,,
penelope glittered! @ 9/22/2003 08:02:00 PM
alright..im now free.....good sign or bad sign?
i dunno.
actually i already knew this was coming.. he doesnt gib me that feeling anymore........felt a bit disappointed....he seemed like he has something to tell mi long long time ago..but i wasnt sure..i knew i had return him the key and was waiting for him to unlock it........
just when i thought things will be better between him and vone.........its too late......relationship has ended...dun worry , im not sad..but i needa time to accept this.kaEZ???anyway..best friends always.......thx for all the wonderful memories u have given mi.......u are the 1st guy whom i really fell in love with.deeply...anyway,thx for this experience!!And Dun fEEL BAD kaE???
penelope glittered! @ 9/22/2003 07:59:00 PM
Saturday, September 20, 2003
wowz........1st time we chat sooo longg on phone.dears throat not feeling well nowadays.....haix.........but mayb what dear said is right..chat more on phone= love stronger.since we cant relally talk face to face.........muackz............
penelope glittered! @ 9/20/2003 11:08:00 PM
Aaron Kwok - wo shi bu shi kai an jing de zou kai
我不知道為甚麼這樣
愛情不是我想像
就是找不到往你的方向
更別說怎麼遺忘
站在雨裡淚水在眼底
不知道往那裡去
心中千萬遍不停呼喚你
不停瘋狂找尋你
我是不是該安靜的走開
還是該勇敢留下來
我也不知道那麼多無奈
可不可以都重來
我是不是該安靜的走開
還是該在這裡等待
等你明白我給你的愛
永遠都不能走開
1 of my fave songs........ but sad sad meaning...HaiX......Will treasure every single moment we have together.........im sure this will be 1 of my most memorable memories........
penelope glittered! @ 9/20/2003 10:42:00 PM
well,im back again........
today,, nothing happened
studied a bit of maths,chinese....
found 1 song which i have been looknig for...
tomoo tuition again
so sianx..........Haix.....
I dunno what to do with dear....
from what i see, yvonne cant seem to accept him......
dric dear oso seldom come into my room...= less time to see him
SC room= lots of rugby guys.... so not convenient for me to be in there......
but..i dunno where can we meet instead..........
it seems hard for dear and me to be together...
our different class ,different levels, CCAs, hobbies......are all different......
now still bitbit shy........makes it so hard to talk to him.....
dunno what to say ,as usual..........
hmm......how long will it be be4 we end this relationship???
I dunno what to do.......ITs either i spent my time with dear, or with gAng.......
HaiX.......been hoping one day yvonne will treat dear dear as 1 of our gang friend......haix.When will this day come, and when it comes will i still be wif dear???????????????????
hmm......anyway, I love u lots dear.....*Not knowing when u will read my blog*
and dear,if the feeling isnt there anymore, tell me kaE??
Love moi dearie lots......
penelope glittered! @ 9/20/2003 10:41:00 PM
Thursday, September 18, 2003
This few days so sianz.......so mani mani tests.........
yepz,my hP bill went up from 26 bucks-$44.....
hmm dears bill went up too.......
nothing much to blog......
i miss ya dear......Love you......
penelope glittered! @ 9/18/2003 06:33:00 PM
Sunday, September 14, 2003
SOmettimes i really wonder.Why i like dearie so much even all the things he did to upset moi.........i dunno...but i believe that pple do make mistakes,perhaps i do make mistakes but i din know it moiself...and i needed pple to remind mi........but dearie dun worry k?
no matter what happens i will be herE.....mayb its the power of love......i dunno...........theres always a force pulling me close to u......always wanting u told me in yr arms.......a very safe feelings.to moi, words may not be important......dunno how to start a topic too.........=nothing to tok about....find moiself a bitbit broing...compared to other gers..hmm........WOndeR whaT had happened to mi...My cheerfulness seems to disappear bit by bit........ Perhaps due to my work and my "leadership" position...........Well well.........
Or is it the feeling is fading away between us??? not really sure.....haix........REally love the time when he kissed mi on the forehead..........a very very sweet feeling which i cant forget........ Although he toks to mani gers, i dunno..i cant find myself to scold him.......or to be angry with him........cause sometimes im the culprit too............never tok to dear........so cant blame dear go tok to other gers...........
What i really like bout dearie??
-Gentle
-Caring
-HONESTY
-The feeling which i loved......(security??)
-come to think of it, hes pretty gentleman too......
Yepz.........I think they are the driving forces which attracts me to him.......what bout u deaR????why u still love mi so much when i dont have time for u???????and seldom tok to you???
Sorrie dear, i need to acheive good grades too ,i need to strike a balance with school work,council work,JCRC work,and our relationship....But studies must come 1st.......Dad got high expectation of me.......veryvery high..I can't slack at all.... mayb thats why i seem so stress at times.,...expecially with all the upcoming tests and exams,,,,,,,,,,
but moi dad policy is that,study 1st,play later.......hope dear understand...This is a crucial period 4 me..........I need to fight back for my rank.......Dad not happy with me getting 6-9* ranking in class.cant really remeber.... I need to get into a GOod JC.....thats what my dads expects me to do..........But i really love u dear.....i love u
penelope glittered! @ 9/14/2003 05:29:00 PM
Hello.....Anyway,did nothing much today..........wanted to study last nite but fell asleep.....hehe,..............with the lights on somemore.......Anyway,hp low batt today...cant tok long or sms much...so sorrie dear........needa study 4 test and more....I think tomolo should be able to go out.....needa buy a cake.......*think so*....dunno whether got JCRC a noot.....hehehe.........Miss moi dear lots.....Really!!Hope no JCRC- can stay out longer with deaire........Love ya !
penelope glittered! @ 9/14/2003 05:03:00 PM
Saturday, September 13, 2003
Oh welsh.....SPent the whole day outside.. haven touch my homework / bks today.hmm.... anyway,i went to try mint ice cream today at CK tang....It was DeliciouS!!think dear will like it too......next time go try try............heheheanyway,haven watch movie yet.....mayb 1 day we could watch the movie with cherlene and junsheng??bought a shirt for my dad today cost me bout 55.20....HGope he likes it though......paid 4 d shirt using nets
after that,went to get water bottle.but still no stock......hmm
gonna try my luck soon........Alright. after that went to have dinner........at Yishun Seafood cetre.Grandma treat.wEre the l;ast to arrive....so paiseh...eat nothingmuch there....dad drank about 6-7 glassses of martell cordon bleu.......haix..he shouldnt drink that much.....went to call dearie using the excuse of going toilet.hit my head again hand dryer.hehehe.....but was worth it....Did i mentio n that south zone rugby is the championS?and dearie was like so happi......Hehhee.glad to see him happy...Anyway,nothing else tro blogg boutl........needa study 4 geog test on monday and to finish up all my homework,,,See ya!
penelope glittered! @ 9/13/2003 11:27:00 PM
Hello.......finally got time to blog..been clearing my table,my dearie still sleeping.nah.not gonna wake for him to wake up.........so mayb no movie too...cause he still sleeping.hai.........Wanted to watch turn left turn "right with dear planning to catch the morning show..hehe.......anyway,today i spent the whole day at gandma house..was kinda boring....did some homework,revison,reading there.........went out to get food foood food.......hehhe..........was thinknig of dear.........hehe.and guess what! he got 2nd sergeant.....
YippE!.bett he feeling euphoric too!!proud of my dear.wonder hows his muture is all about.Love him lotz......din really tok.he was too exhausted .........let him sleep.sleep tight my dear,,,,Good nigHT and SweeT DreamS!!!Well Roti PRatA rUleS!and now my room is neat & tidy again.YippeE!dear,have u finished yr hw?sch starting soon!!sianz........Love u dear.....Nitenite!muacks!see ya in dReam LAnd!! Dads bday coming .on monday....yikes.haven got something 4 him yet!!!
penelope glittered! @ 9/13/2003 01:48:00 AM
Thursday, September 11, 2003
wahhahaha......yea!!gonna meet my dearie soon!!! dunno whether he knows i will be eating there........hehehe.....Yepz!more time spent with dearie!!!hehehe.beriberi happi now........lolz.........oh welsh,blogger got this new feature.....look kinda good....... hehe....feeling beri beri happi now........love moi dear lots.haven finish maths though......lotsa work to be completed hehehe...but enjoy with dear 1st.cause i miss him sooooooooo much.........love ya dear!
penelope glittered! @ 9/11/2003 02:33:00 PM
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
wahhahaha..kinda bored n0ow..........realise yr god sis valerie change her blog skin to the same as mine.kinda surprise but nvm...= mi got good taste..hahaha......dear...hope u will call me later.will be waiting 4 yer call k???muacks@love u lots.miss u too.din go 4 angela partie cause u mot there.........=not fun.moreover wanna do some work too...hehehe........love u love u..........
oh wwelsh......tok to xin ru online......GOod friends again........hehehe......want to watch turn left turn right??like a nice movie..........hmm........yepz.dearie called mi ard 11.20 tonight.was waiting for his call!!!and yippeE!he called mi.....hehehe.......anyway..trying and thinknig of methods to go out to meet him........hehe..........well see how dear........
Js was like laughing.........after friday u book out camp,u willl rush down to meet moi.........hehee.and i have a new nick(i change ilud) to iludaa(u know what that means right??) and added imud......= i miss you dear.......hehehe........yea!!1 more day!!!yippeE!
penelope glittered! @ 9/10/2003 09:01:00 PM
well well.latest update...not going to grandma house tomolo..but on friday instead.What a bad ideA!!!
and then,mum wants to go out with moi on sat.but i dun 1.i want to spend time with u,dear.....dunno how.mayb on friday i go out lor...then can meet u.hehehe...............then can use excuse say go find sigg bottle too!!!hehehe.........Hope that i am allowed to go out.cooped at grandma house beri beri sianz 1...hai..why cannot go tomolo???hmm..........Love ya dear...Hopefully theres a day where i can go out with u be4 the end of sept hols.
Love ya lots.....Hugs and kisses,penelope
penelope glittered! @ 9/10/2003 08:53:00 PM
oh welsh.....found out that ivan and sam anne together.hehee..cher and js together ..hehehe/....anywyay, life's so boring without u by moi side..really.......been doing homework 4 a while...continuing later.......toomolo cannot go out with dear.perhaps u wanna meet at choa chu kang instead??heheh me gonig grandma house............so see ya on fri or sat.most prob i can go out either of 1 of the days..quite confused..should i go and see u play rugby or go 4 a movie on fri....hmmm
penelope glittered! @ 9/10/2003 04:23:00 PM
The truth about gers(oni to a certain extent)-meaningful.....but just copy them from meisy webbie.....heheh(sorrI!!never ask4 permisiion)
*When a girl says she's sad, but she isn't crying, it means she's crying in her heart.
*When she ignores you after you've done something wrong, it's best to give her some time to cool down before touching her heart with an apology.
*A girl can't find anything to hate about the guy she loves (which is why it is so hard for her to 'get over him' after the relationship's over.)
*If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on her mind every minute of the day, even though she flirts with other guys.
*When the guy she likes smiles and stares deep into her eyes, she will melt.
*A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually is not sure how to react to them.
*When a particular guy flirts with a girl very often, a girl would start thinking the guy likes her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend, go easy on the smiles and stare 'kie?
*If you don't like a girl who likes you, break it to her gently.
*If a girl starts avoiding you after you reject her, leave her alone for a while. If you still treat her as a friend, talk to her.
*Girls enjoy talking about what they feel. Music, poetry, drawings and writing are ways of expressing themselves (which explains why most girls like writing journals).
*Never tell a girl tht she is useless in any way.
*Being too serious can turn a girl off.
*When the guy she likes calls her for the first time, the girl may act uninterested during the call. But as soon as the phone is back on the hook, she will whoop with joy and immediately start telephoning her friends to spread the news.
* A smile means a lot to a girl.
* If you like a girl, try making friends with her first. Let her get to know you.
* If a girl says she can't go out with you because she has to study, leave.
* But if she still calls you or expect a call from you, stay.
* Don't try to guess a girl's feelings. Ask her.
* Hearing the words "I love you" is a great reassurance to a girl that she is beautiful.
* After a girl falls in love with a guy, she'll wonder why she never noticed him before.
* If you need tips on how to flirt with a girl, read romance stories.
* When class pictures come out, a girl would first check who is standing next to her crush before actually looking at herself.
* A girl's ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her heart.
* Girls love having fun!
* A simple 'Hi' can brighten a girl's day.
* A girl's best friends usually know best what she is feeling and going through.
* Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to them just to get close to their 'prettier' friend.
* Love means devotion, caring and happiness to a girl, in that order.
* Some girls care about looks, some care about brains, but ALL girls want a guy who will love and care for them.
* Girls want nothing more than to feel loved
penelope glittered! @ 9/10/2003 04:20:00 PM
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
Hehehehe...dearie just called me!!!dum dum.he neber bring hp....hehehe.........Well.Love u lots dear.Sorrie.cant hear u clearly over the phone!!enjoy yr Campz........Love ya lots....thursday 2pm??hmm...well see how kk??muackS!
Dear: get u remmeber whens the 1st day we started smsing? 1st time call u dearie.......? 1st time hold hands with you??1st time went out together?? 1st time you kissed me on cheek?? 1st time u kissed me on lips??? hehehe.....just wondering
penelope glittered! @ 9/09/2003 11:00:00 PM
Hello....Sorrie for not blogging....Dear now at traINING camp.So sianz....4 Days without him.Oh.......4 miserable days.....Luckily 1 day has passed.........hehehe..3 moRE dAYs then dear dear will come home!!yipee.........Well.TOday physiCS remedial is sooooooooborring..all bout light rays and stuff.............Life even more borring without dear.....Hehehe........ i went out with Aramia,yvonne,and jinfa went to causeway to watch the League....But no show til 9.30.Ran all the way back to sUn Plaza to watch Pirates... well.it was nice... the whole theatre is so empty k?hehehe........theres oni like 10 person in the theatre.We made sooo much noise.Adn brought food into cinema to munch on.hehhee..........Notti right??,its against the rule though..............aFter that we went to look for water bottles.....But mi din get any.Wanted the light blue sigg bottle.but no stock til friday-sat. so mi mayb can go out!!hehe need to return books too!!!anyway, why u tell xinru that u 2 went out together???? She is like so paiseh to see me today..and to talk to mi......shouldnt have let her know.She wrote something to mi..(but secret..cant tell u)............Anyway.......i dunno wwhat to do too.. but i think we can soon become good friends again....And i'm not angry with her.........(she tinks im mad at her though.).........hmm.....But at least she told me that u 2 really went out instead of denying........ dear........really miss u......Hope To sEE ya SOOn!!!!Love ya....MuackS
penelope glittered! @ 9/09/2003 09:04:00 PM
Sunday, September 07, 2003
So dear.....what do u think??which path should we choosE?the sweeter path or the "worst " path.......And i dun wanna see my dear so upset k???its not yr fault....trust me..........and i am willing to forgive u dear.........just like what u normally say... the power of love make me do it............i really love u.........
penelope glittered! @ 9/07/2003 09:14:00 PM
Weell...although i say no more blogging.but i find it hard not to blog......well
so much things have happened between this two days.......something which could cause a strain in our relationship...or which could make us to be together.i dunno which option we are going to choose or going to face..Well, for more details read dearie blogs.....Yepz.i was kind of jealous when he told mi that he is going out with XR aLone.....for a movie...But i felt that i could trust him.......however not loong after.he told mi that xin ru like him..i was like so shock.........couldnt really accept the truth.....and mi sort of want to let dearie go to be with her.I guess she need much more care and concern than i do...but i realise i couldnt really do it.cause i love dearie too much..........and wasnt willing to let him go..but i was feeling hurt coz me wanted to spend time with him on monday.....be4 he leave for his camp...and i wun see him 4 4 miserable dayS!!!but since he got a date with xinru.i might as weell stay back and to play bball with the gang.....And forgetting whatever they 2 are doing......but we "patched" up in the end..making life sweeter and everything............but somehow,inside me, i had this weird feeling...........Well.....soon its sunday ...(TodaY!!).............tried to talk to him via phone calls and sms....but more shocking news came.....
dearie told me that he like xin ru......i was stunned.......feeling very hurt..not knowing what to do.......was so confused at that moment........and i was like saying : " i am preety possessive"......somehow.....i just dun like the idea of dearie liking another ger..........but what can i do??i dunno how 2 change him.i really dont know how......Although i love him,, i believe that i love him for the way he is.and that is 1 fact i couldnt change bout dearie...........
although he told me that he like Xin Ru but he loved mi...i wonder how true was this sentence is......In car journey, i was thinknig bout this 4 the whole day.....but i knew he still got the right to like other gers.......but iguess im pretty selfish.i really dun wanna my dear to like any other gers..i just couldnt......but i guess...........he being xin ru best friend/companion is stillfine with me...cause i truly believe that xin ru needs someone to talk to..........
But dear...dun forget.u ate the key yesterday...........so u couldnt run away from mi..............and dear....no worry kaES?cause im alrgiht.....and i really mean it when i say i love u deeply and always.........Love you dearie...........
penelope glittered! @ 9/07/2003 09:12:00 PM
Friday, September 05, 2003
Well, dear dear seems a bit occupied with school work nowadayS!But its oookie.Well spend more time after end year kae??Cause i needa study too!!!So work hard and enjoy life to yr fullest!!!Love u lots!MuackS!No more blogging til end exams ke?See yA!
penelope glittered! @ 9/05/2003 09:42:00 PM
Thursday, September 04, 2003
Sorrie dear for not updatin.hehe.......But got nothing to blogg.....anyway, todays klass was boring..after my bio(3.30) went to hall to help Mr J.....in tomolo n level prelims....Mi may go sch earlier tomolo kaE?help him gif out exam papers!!heheh!!helped MR J to carry tables,carry fans and to tidy this and that up.Well.........Seems to know what i need to do in the hall(like arrangement and stuff) after mid year exam.Can't wait to play domino tiles again!!!heheh.......Anywayz..........Got 16 more journals to go??how 2 finsh??hehehe.........Will be called back to sch on tuesday......for physics....Thats all fer now.Not sure about others.........anyway.....i dunno when i can go oout with mty dear......But i realli want to spend my monday with u.Trying to push back movie to tuesday!!hjehehe........well see how then okie?
tomolo u got AWWA= cannot send me home liaoz.....haI!!.......Hope it ends early then can see u.,..kae
Love ya lotZ! BTW, meisy bday coming soon, u getting anything 4 her?
penelope glittered! @ 9/04/2003 09:24:00 PM
Tuesday, September 02, 2003
Today.Got maths test.Din really study*HOpe i do Well*....Din really tok much to dearie today.Boo HOO.Well.Tomolo sure can see him..........I think(JacKY) Said good bye to moi.Was kinda shocked.At the BUssTOp......Everi1 was asking Moi.Where's AAldriC???Jhgege....and I would juz reply .:oh He's got rugby training......... everyone will go.:oh..........
Supposedlly everyone knows about us.Idunno How....hehehe....Well.NO point denying.So well..........Hehehez...........Today went home ALONE feeling kinda bored.........But its OkiE.Dearie HAve Fun caN Liaoz...Anywya.Dearie How u dO in All Yr tesTS?
hO0pefuylly its all okie?? Mum sudden ask me.whether im attached......cause she say i been behaving oddly this few weeks.hehehe.....Oni can deny.So paiseh Dear......SAy that u are my veri veri good boy friend.....hehe Love ya
penelope glittered! @ 9/02/2003 08:55:00 PM
Monday, September 01, 2003
Happy Teachers DAY!!!HEhehe.Today is a nice yet tiring day..Although the later part of the day is boring.......Hehhehe.....WEll.Today morning went out with dear dear again.Guess where we went to???Yepz.We weent To SembaWang PArk.ya.Sembawang Park.Went to walk walk round there.Dearie was bitten by mosquitoes........Mayb u too sweet liaoz.....Hehehe...but it felt goood to hold hiis hand and sit at some place where there are mosquitoes....and we can hear the crickets.Can u imagine how quiet it is???hehehe.Well....din tok much.know more about him bit more and more.......hehee....
he still look kinda sad.......hai.......Dunno what to do.......Anywya,we went back at 1120.........took 167 back and walk to Sun PLaza.......Went to get coke,fries and an icecream...shared with dearie of cause......And today's ice cream is extremely sWEET!!!hehehe.Cause dear dear fed me with his spoon..Was sure that i cant finish the whole ice cream on my own .......hehe......Then went to northpoint t0 meet moi classmates.Many wERE LATE!!!hehehe.......My Ex teacher is there too!!!hehehe.SurpRISE!...went to her house.saw her wedding photos and stuff.....saw her poto which she took last year in the europe tour.Wao...Like a lot of things to see like that.Scenery was too beautiful...Nice Place for honeymoon...ehehhee........Anyway....after that went home.I wasnt sure where dearie kissed me in the bus on our way to Sun Plaza.......Is it on the cheek??or the lips??not sure.But im sure he kissed mi on my Forehead in the MRT.........A goodbye kiss.hhehee........Nice nice feeling........NEeda go to study for maths!sorrie dear.No time peI u aGain!..........Paisehz!Love YOu
*ANother memorable day indeed........Dearie Kiss Me on the lips.....and spent 1 hour at the park***Memorable siaz....Love u lotS!
penelope glittered! @ 9/01/2003 10:23:00 PM
WEll well.
Dearie couldnt make himself love mi as much....wonder whats wrong .....hmm.....because of his broken hEArt? Mi love dear dear more..cause i promised him i will pick up all his broken heart pieces and joined them back as 1.......but im just afraid that he may feel inferior with me.Just like what pple say:I so clever ,rich ger.....But i dun see the reason why i cant like my dearie even if he's meeting some problems.........As his dear.I should be there for him.ShoWer Him WIth Moi Love ANd Care........And Make him to Study.sorri dEar if i make u study tHat much??Are you feeling pressurized to be with Moi???As in having to study.forcing u to study and stuff like thatz............Hmm.........Just like what Mrs Wong taught.,1 good girlfriend encourages her BOiFriend to study hARd.......aNd that maKes A GOod GerfriEnd......hmm....MAny will beg to differ...Im sure of that.....well.Do u know that i saw winnie the pooh bear at ParkWay Parade?but its sold out liaoz.....Boo hOO!!Im going to try my luck at all coin Vending shops to find my POOH beAR!! miss YA
*Are we moving aparT???*-......??
penelope glittered! @ 9/01/2003 12:05:00 AM
