Thursday, September 30, 2004
i seriously got nothing to blogg abt today.
except that i got the neos todae.
paid for council photo and yada yada.
kind of broke now.
:( i lurve bio praCt lessons now. LasT leSSon for lab pract til o'levels........
eDIttEd.
Nvr feLt so Sad before. and the worse thing is i dunno why im saD.
two of my best friends seemed to be so far away from me...
they were the one who shared my happiness and secrets.
CRaPPed and joked with me.
been there whenever im down.
but now. we are so distant.
we only exchanged no more than 5 sentences a day.
when wIll the DAy come that we will all be enjoying ourselves? just like the past?
will the dream come true? Or will it just be a Dream?
im just crapping. perhapS im tOO tired.
there are si many things in my mind now.
i dun even know how i feel.
towards my friends, towards the world.
i find that im constantly putting on a mask
to cover all the unhappiness inside me.
i should be a clown in the future instead.
thats my occupation now.
penelope glittered! @ 9/30/2004 11:13:00 PM
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
WElshz. Im back from orchard cineleisure after catching LEs choristes.
(the Choir BOIS)
then went to take neoprints! WE were the last to Leave to shop . 1st time :) haha
and it turned out GREAT ..wEe.. Got lots of fun taking those pictures, Banging the machine, posing. and all the toot toot facE! hehee..shall examine it carefully tml.
anyway, the movie is touchinG!! LURVE it sOooooo much,
cutE caSt! esP Peppintet (watever u spell it.)
hehe...
WEnt home with aramia, we missed the bus at the traffic light. luckily the next bus arrives quickly too! saw jeaNette. :)
talked crap on d bus. and then aramia alighted.
rEached home bus-stop.
sAw my dADdy waiting outside at the traffic light.hOlding an extra umbrella in his hands!!
ooohh..SO nice of him isnt it? haha.
then i realise my mum was awake too.what a surpirsE! they cAre for me :)
reached home at 11pm exactly. sO never kenna scolding.
curfew is at 11pm. unless got BBq. hee..
wELsh, i enjoyed myself today. ALl play and no study.
The tPa came today too. for the prom night thingy and alummi.
WE decided to go for both. hOpe it will be fun fun!!
wEee...27 nov. 1 day aft my bday .hehee...
see ya!
penelope glittered! @ 9/29/2004 11:42:00 PM
Monday, September 27, 2004
My nightmare has just begun.
an increase in my L1R5 made me sad.
while the others did so much better as compared to the other examinations.
did i do verybadlY?
i faIled my expectations. :(
doeS that mean i have to bang my head aGainsT the wALl to become a bit smarTer?
perhaps perhaps perhAPs.
anyway, was busy snapping pictures using nia-so phone.
kind of funny anyway! esp when 3 person tries to squeeze into the picture. haha.
and my hand ain't long enough .
short ppl has short hands :)
anyway, i feel sad.
yvonne didnt meet her targets and is clearly depressed.
i dunno how to comfort her at all.
haiyo...raCking my braIN now.......
JAnice have sorted her thoughts out.'
perhaps,the xinru event may be over.
isn't that great?
hmm....... its still a "and they lived happily ever after " ending..
but jan arh..i nvr say anything much hor.
"Yes, I agree with Wan Su that many things have happen during these 4 years. I have fallen out with many people and I only have myself to blame that I am in this state now. Thanks WS for waking me up. I realize my mistakes. " /janicE blogg
u reflected and realise it yrself.
i certainly didnt say that u must blame yourself for whatever happened over the past 4 years hor... anyway, glad that you are changing yr perception towards friends!
WEee.....
To cLarify Some Matters/ misconceptions abt me :)
I DONT HAVE any inTereSt in competing with any fRIends. :) (in terms of resultS. )
im JUst being cOncerned.
I certainly do not want cOmparison to cause a strain in our friendship .
IF you think that im all out to compete ,then u guys are wrong . BLeahX! :P
i set high standards for myself and my goal is not to do better than any of you.
my goal is simple, and that is to get into one good JC. and to achieve my targetted marks .
Is cUriosity a bad thing?? ponders.
penelope glittered! @ 9/27/2004 08:27:00 PM
Sunday, September 26, 2004
welsh, im back.
Shao hui, theRes no OLENE juice hor.. not that i never ask
haha. only got orange soft drink.
im suddenly feeling very down.
hmm.. people do change during this 4 years isn't it?
i changed too! in terms of character /a bit of personality and Looks.
ppl around me has changed too.
however, i wished that neither of us have changed.
and things will be like the same old days.
esp sec 1. the dAys are the most enjoyable.
there's no bACkstabbers anywhere.
just friends who really care.
im not implying that there's any here :)
dun be mistaken.
ya.. competition in sec 1 and 2 is fun.
competition is sec 3 and 4 = sTress + pressure.
wHo don't want to be the best?
everyone is fighting for the top.
NOt only in our school but im sure in everywhere we go.
we become more aware of the people around us.
undeRstand how each feels under certain circumstances.
the feeling of being used by someone.
the feeling of being in love and out of love.
the feeling of having no friends to care about you.
the feeling of being bullied.
its all part and parcel of life.
everyone has different aspirations.
we have different goals in life.
earn money? get married and have kids? be an entrepreneur?
hMm..til now.
im n0t sure of what i want to be.
i dun daRe to Dream big or Dream fAr.
im cOntent with what things are like.
but is everyone out there content with the present situation?
i dun think so.
what am i blabbering during this hour? WElsh.
i nEed to get some sleEP , gOod nitE.
JANicE,
no matter what happens, you do have a group of friends around you.
jusT like me. I too have such an experience.when u feel helpless and no one is there.
but after that, you will begin to see that your friends are concerned about ya.'
im sure they didnt mean to ignore you or not helping ya to do a favour.
but they may their own stuff to settle first.Right?
so dun think about the worse, continue to move on .
Life in Peirce is gonna be over and its up to you whether you want PEirce to be a memorable place or a place which u hated.
its up to you whether you want to open your doors to new friends.
noone can help you with this.only u yourself.
SO do open yr heart to see that people around you cARes abt ya.
thats all i gotta sAY!
PeneLope
penelope glittered! @ 9/26/2004 01:26:00 AM
Saturday, September 25, 2004
weee... just had an haircut.
im so tired.. woke up so early to accompany my mum to go to the hairdresser.
sianx.. i want to sleep. and now im reminded that i had this english report to hand in on monday.
hmm.. im not gonna be at home til midnight today :)
got wedding dinner to attend . yippEe... good fooD?
anyway, prelim results gonna be announced on monday. *oohh ,i can't wait! (as if)**
there goes my fReEdom... :( BOo!
penelope glittered! @ 9/25/2004 05:14:00 PM
Thursday, September 23, 2004
sChool is boring.
studied eng for 1st 2 hours and maths the later half.
this afternoon lessons do put some of us to Zzzz..
however,i woke up at 1pm today.
so happy, fully recharged battery.
but that also meant that i didnt study at all.
and i watched 4 hours of TV.
Troy's out in aPPrentice.
a bit sad lahx. but next week episode seems interesting.
wAIt. EVERY episode is interesting.
hee... welsh... i cant take it anymore.
back to dreamland.Zzzz..
janice is watching MAma mia today.
oooo, i cant wait for my tURN. mwhaha.
im SO Jealous of her. getting to watch it so soon.,
but whatever, i just want the best seats i could find!
penelope glittered! @ 9/23/2004 11:57:00 PM
yeah! tml school starts at 2 and ends at 6
this meant i can wake up late.
mwhaha...
i want to watch the choir bois ..
argh... but this new timetable dun allow me to watch all the afternoon shows.
sianx.
and this timetable gonna last til 15 oct,
and i am suddenly reminded to return 1 sec 3 her ci yu shou ce.
haha...if not she cannot study le.
i shall get something to thank both of them manx.
hee.some results were made known today.
wasn't exactly pleased.
did average. and BELOW expectations.
or isit my expectations were too high? i wonder, i ponder, i wonder.
however , i did well for both maths paper 1. that exceeded my expectations.
however, im more confident towards both of the paper 1 and not 2.
so hope paper 2 wun pull me down lahx. i cant imagine if i did badly for both paper 2.
haix. APparently, i didnt do too well for english compre.
only got 32/50. was trying to aim at least 35.
then at least i will be safe and may get an A2 grade.
haiyo. now only got 32.
must pray even harder that i score in paper 1.at least 40 ++ marks.
Sadx. only maths seemed to go well for me.
but my sciences is a nono.
im awaiting for more prelim results.
WEeee......
penelope glittered! @ 9/23/2004 01:09:00 AM
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
ALl is over and done with,
now i await for the results of this horrible Examination.
hope it brings me more GOOd news rather than bad ones.
but, last min work doesnt give me any assurance to score well in exam.
oh well, im used to this harsh conditions of absorbing at least 20 chapters per day.
but this doesnt mean that i remember evertyhing.
After the Amaths paper,
i suppposed most of us went out.
the 4 of us stayed in school and played badminton.
ke xi lao tian bu zuo mei, it began to rain wheenever we were enjoying ourselves.
around 3++-4++.
we played under the drizzle.
so shiok. even though i couldnt see well in such conditions.
haha...we were so smeelly aft the game. and went to "pollutE" the room.
and xy,gh and carisa were trying to study inside.
hah.
we were actually planning to go SUX house.
play tennis.
in the end, heavy downpour, activity cancelled.
four of us dunno where to go.
blur blur sit under the bus -stop.
brainstorming for ideas.
in the end, we decided to go to aramia grandma place.
to play badminton.
due to our horror, we saw guys just going in to play.
haiyoh,if we decided to go there play earlier.
haha. SO, we went to slack under the rain at the poolside.
so stupid kae?!
saw ms ho, then joke joke for a while.
at 6pm ,we left the place le
although today has been a kok kok day,
we still "EnjoyeD" ourselves lahx.
1st time got nowhere to go.
wante to catch a movie but no time,
haix... anyway, PRELIMS OVER ! YEAH!
penelope glittered! @ 9/21/2004 10:29:00 PM
Monday, September 20, 2004
yeah!
something to rejoice abt is that i completed my chemistry paper.
no time to check though.
not really confident but at least i feel that i can do better than the physics prelims.
haiz.
feeling so demoralised after knowing my physics marks.
i got a lousy B grade.
a great impact on my l1r5.
esp i got a 2 for chinese.
feel like banging my head against the wall .
and not to think about it.
but this seriously aFFect my revision for my last paper tml.
how i wish i could turn time back, study a little harder.
maybe i can answer 1 -2 more questions.
i need 3 more marks to get an a2.
thats like impossible lor.
to search for 3 marks out of nowehere.
Kwok is gonna be so disappointed i get a b3 grade.
makes me feel guilty.
im not performing up to my own expectations.
im afraid of getting a nervous breakdown soon.
argH.... welsh, gotta go.
mugg a bit of maths and i will call it a day.
and go to Dreamland.
penelope glittered! @ 9/20/2004 10:08:00 PM
weEE...
chemistry is over.
its maThs time.
no more memorising/ understanding concepts.
just need lots of practice.
called sistic hotline today, abt mama mia musical.
wee... hahax. nahx. im not going yet. maybe some time later.
heehe... i cant wait to see that show.
esp when JAnice is to catch it on thursday.
ku ku heaD.
heee
penelope glittered! @ 9/20/2004 04:22:00 PM
Sunday, September 19, 2004
ZZzz,,,,,,,,
just woke up.
slept for two hours just now.
still got many many chemistry tostudy, MAcromolecules, extraction of metals.
blah blah blah.
SUper worried abt tml.
but will also be super duper relieved when chem's over.
there will only be a maths 2 left.
at least that will give me a good reason to sleep early.
i wish that time will come to a standstill.
so i got lots of time to mugg for chem and sLEep.
: )
penelope glittered! @ 9/19/2004 11:20:00 PM
Friday, September 17, 2004
alright.
so many things happened .
my physics is gone case i think.
i will be over the moon if i got a b3.
and that will only be possible if i do well for paper 2.
tHe KILLER paPer .
i guessed i panicked cause i can't do many questions.
i Felt so helpless for the 1st time for physics.
normally i still can "bullshit" some facts out.
but this time round, im reALly CLueless.
anyway, aft the paper .
we went TO staRbucks.
with Lyn ,vone, xue ying and xue wen.
mind you, Xue Wen is sOoo hard working kae!
she did her homework while waiting for us and in stArbucKs.
mAde me sOoo guilty.
the sEc 2s (jowell and her ) are spending more time in their studies than i AM.
Omg, shall really wake up.
and work hard.
46 more days to o leVels.
soon i will be free.
yippEE! but this meant that O levels is approaching.
the nightmarE.
oh welsh, Whatever.
after sTArbucks, went to buy KAya and food home.
but we played phOtohunt at the fOod court there.
my fave hangout place whenever i go TP.
mwhaha. WE broke the rEcord.
being the top few winners.
i think its 2nd,3rd,8th. something like that.
it waas SO funn!! heee..
we saw someone totally unexpected doing something unexpected.
mwhaha. only lyn and vone will understand whats happening.
we went to SEmbawang MusIc records, looked at the new albums.
but didnt get any.
was busy watching tv programmes over the past few hours.
mwhaha.... enkoyed the shows man. at least i won't feel guilty of not studying.
not like all the exam days.
heeheee...
Tv programmes are impt as well as studies.
anyway, shall blog more tml !
penelope glittered! @ 9/17/2004 10:22:00 PM
Thursday, September 16, 2004
im in deep shit now. studied 3 chapters of physics only? im gonna be so dead.
pray hard that i will still remember all the stuff i studied before during sec3 and sec4 mid year.
oh man, really dui bu qi kwok. :(
penelope glittered! @ 9/16/2004 09:43:00 PM
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
haha. supposedly to be studying my biology now.
but dun tink i will be able to finish anyway
so i should just blog a short entry
today is my baba burfdae.
he thought i forgotten as usual.
i brought the cake to the living room. (sneaked out of my study room and crept to the kitchen of coursE!) just nice, my korkor called home.
so i brought it in front of him, with the candle lighted. just as he was abt to blow the candle, i accidentally extinguished the flame. perhaps i breathe to much CO2 out bahx. cause i was laughing with him. haha. so kuku head.
anyway, shall talk more tml .
gotta study as much as i could. :)
penelope glittered! @ 9/15/2004 10:21:00 PM
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
another paper down.
a maths wasn't as tough as expected.
but not really sure can do well anot.
reached home and wanted to study geography but ended up SLeeping.
so i just woke up and preparing to mugg for geog le.
i still dunno which chapters i should study.. haha... and i try my best to squeeze in a little time for my biology that is on thursday.
but i haven touched any chapters for physics yet, unless u counted "kwoks revision " as studying...
anyway, do tAke care of yourselfs,drink lots of watER.
Dun fall sick during this "criticAL" period!
penelope glittered! @ 9/14/2004 02:17:00 PM
Monday, September 13, 2004
mwhaha. 1st time home so early.
:)
dimissed at 10am but got maths remedial by aunty wong. so had to stay back til bout 11++.
so tired. e maths wasn't that tough, just pray hard no careless mistakes.
tml will be dismissed at 10am too.
haha. but having add maths. sure cannot slowly slowly do liaox. not like today. still can have 5 water breaks in order to keep myself awake.
so weirdo. i slept early last night but im still feeling sleepy today morning.
shall sleep even earlier than!
may blog later.
penelope glittered! @ 9/13/2004 02:45:00 PM
Sunday, September 12, 2004
im feeling nervous again. afraid of this and that. perhaps i didnt mug enough. thats why. this is supposed to be an easy paper as compared to others. pray hard WE can do the questions tml. heeeheee.
gotta sleep early for better concentration and FOcuS.
SweEt drEams and nitES!
penelope glittered! @ 9/12/2004 10:42:00 PM
tomorrow's prelim! oh shit. im less than1/4 thru my syllabus. wish me luck kaE? prays hard i can finish everything before the exams. mwhaha... im pinning high hopes on my mathematics though. not much practice this time round. im gonna be so dEad * bang!*
and good luck to other sEc4s who are having their prelims! . JiaYOu.
penelope glittered! @ 9/12/2004 04:43:00 PM
Friday, September 10, 2004
back from kwok.
score badly for kwok test
physics failed . the lowest mark i got so far. but still, im not the only one whu failed
haha. sure got more failures de!
chemistry just passed,
does this mean that i didnt work harD?
hmm.. idunno...
penelope glittered! @ 9/10/2004 02:45:00 PM
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Nyaa award day.
we waited for the ceremony from 9 to 1055.
arGh.. should have slept longer, meijiao will not need to rush from sch to the singapore power auditorium by taking a cab. but its still fun lahx.getting an award.
haha. went home after the event. too tired to walk around. wasn't in the mood too.
i dunno why, maybe feeling super sianx to go orchard liaox.
i took my bus,
i missed my stop.
not one, but many.
i found myself ending up at chong pang city.
cause i dozed off in the bus.
this was the 1st time that my human clock didnt managed to wake me up.
haha. whatever, but its a nice experience .
now i know how it feels to miss one's bus-stop. mwhaha.
optimistic approach towards life?
taKe caRE!
penelope glittered! @ 9/08/2004 01:24:00 AM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
wasnt at home the whole day, went for 3 science remedials consecutively. Tiring. furthermore, i have to go for kwok. oH man. this is terrible. shall blog tml. Buaix!
penelope glittered! @ 9/07/2004 01:06:00 AM
Sunday, September 05, 2004
today been a long day. went for tuition. now trying to rush thru my bio and chem worksheet given. last min work
tml is kwok test, never study. sure die le. later he say girls are lazy again.
hehhe... anyway, tomorrow is gonna be a longer day. 3 science remedials from the morning til afternoon. after that, if time permits, maybe go kite-flying. after that, it will be Kwok tIme! hours of test. physics and chemistry . hope that my brain will be working. and not concentrating on ZZzing. hehe . Im getting lazy.
anyway , after 8 years.
we finally chat again. and its like the past, not much barriers.
i remembered somemore incidents which he reminded me.
and i forgot all about it. hahax...
what to do, everyone chose to keep different parts of their memories isn't it? hehe..
and i chose to keep those joyful one down.
he remembered the sad incidents which involved me crying.
the truth to some pranks played during p3.
haha...
penelope glittered! @ 9/05/2004 11:17:00 PM
Saturday, September 04, 2004
gReat, my SS and english papers are over.
went to tP to have lunch with mia and nette.
actually wanted to go with jan and xy.
but j8 too inconvienent.
thats why.
bio practical results were told to us today,aft english prelims
good thing is that i managed to pass.
bad thing is that i got a lousy pass, 21 /40.
dunno to feel happy cause im one of the ppl who passed.
or should i feel sad because im just plain lucky to get this mark.
i Dunno, i really dunoo.
no mood to go and brood over all this marks.
even though its going into my prelim results.
sAd.
penelope glittered! @ 9/04/2004 04:47:00 PM
Friday, September 03, 2004
WElsh, got back progress report marks.
not that happy, not that sad either.
just disappointed.
i could have done much better than this?
i did well for my important two subjects
but my other relevant subjects were such a let-down.
got a2s instead of a1s.
knocks head.
SPending so much $$$ on my tuition fees and not scoring well in return.
this is bad.
i cant get this kind of results for my prelims.
however, i got pretty alphabets.
but not the numbers .
thank goodness this is only progress report.
shall just work harder for my prelims.
i cant accept the fact that my peers are doing much better than they actually could.
Where's the drive and enthusiasm i used to have for my studies?
wheres the focuS?
im not sTupid but just lazy. gotta get my mind to work again.
Tomorrow's English prelim paper.
1 of my weaker subjects.
just hoped that i got inspiration for my compo ideas,
and continue to do well just like my common test.
Wish me luck!
NOt forgetting all my friends who will be taking their prelims!
Jia youX!
penelope glittered! @ 9/03/2004 10:02:00 PM
Thursday, September 02, 2004
im so happy kaeS?
not that i scored exceptionally well in my chem pract or whatsoever.
he remembered me!! WeeeeeeeeEEEEEEe.....
although its been a long 8 years,without meeting up/chatting
but now via friendster,i found him again!!
super duper big thanks to my ex-monitoress.
hehee... who told me she finally locate his friendster account.
mwahahaha......
finally i get to find some of my best childhood partners back.except 2 -3 of them ...
haix.. i wanna meet them! i wanna talk to them!
but im afraid that it will be so weird to meet up with them after 8 yearS!
omg!! :)
hhehee...
penelope glittered! @ 9/02/2004 06:11:00 PM
