Sunday, September 07, 2003
Weell...although i say no more blogging.but i find it hard not to blog......well
so much things have happened between this two days.......something which could cause a strain in our relationship...or which could make us to be together.i dunno which option we are going to choose or going to face..Well, for more details read dearie blogs.....Yepz.i was kind of jealous when he told mi that he is going out with XR aLone.....for a movie...But i felt that i could trust him.......however not loong after.he told mi that xin ru like him..i was like so shock.........couldnt really accept the truth.....and mi sort of want to let dearie go to be with her.I guess she need much more care and concern than i do...but i realise i couldnt really do it.cause i love dearie too much..........and wasnt willing to let him go..but i was feeling hurt coz me wanted to spend time with him on monday.....be4 he leave for his camp...and i wun see him 4 4 miserable dayS!!!but since he got a date with xinru.i might as weell stay back and to play bball with the gang.....And forgetting whatever they 2 are doing......but we "patched" up in the end..making life sweeter and everything............but somehow,inside me, i had this weird feeling...........Well.....soon its sunday ...(TodaY!!).............tried to talk to him via phone calls and sms....but more shocking news came.....
dearie told me that he like xin ru......i was stunned.......feeling very hurt..not knowing what to do.......was so confused at that moment........and i was like saying : " i am preety possessive"......somehow.....i just dun like the idea of dearie liking another ger..........but what can i do??i dunno how 2 change him.i really dont know how......Although i love him,, i believe that i love him for the way he is.and that is 1 fact i couldnt change bout dearie...........
although he told me that he like Xin Ru but he loved mi...i wonder how true was this sentence is......In car journey, i was thinknig bout this 4 the whole day.....but i knew he still got the right to like other gers.......but iguess im pretty selfish.i really dun wanna my dear to like any other gers..i just couldnt......but i guess...........he being xin ru best friend/companion is stillfine with me...cause i truly believe that xin ru needs someone to talk to..........
But dear...dun forget.u ate the key yesterday...........so u couldnt run away from mi..............and dear....no worry kaES?cause im alrgiht.....and i really mean it when i say i love u deeply and always.........Love you dearie...........
penelope glittered! @ 9/07/2003 09:12:00 PM
